when i grow up.

another day another story.

drops of jupiter.

decisions are meant to be decided.this time,i really wonder is it the right one or its just another runaway.encountering these problems over and over again really bores me a lot.i've learnt enough about human nature.i don't need to experience it like a never ending sad ass story.i even wonder am i the problem.because it just keeps on happening.everywhere i go!seriously i've lost faith in this thing that sometimes i feel stupid whenever i force myself to believe in it once again.i totally understand nobody's perfect.understood that long time ago.but patience has its limit.once you step across my red line,i can't see you in the way i used to anymore.i tried to wash and scrub that off.i tried my best not to ruin this newly built fragile thing that once was a pile of shit to me.you were once the glue that built me up bits by bits.but seems like you kept on pushing me to edge of the table that i might fall off and shatter into pieces again.do you even realise it?dts.

anyhoo.enough of this emotional weird piece of talking.its been days and weeks.things that i imagined before happened.in a way,i still want to take it as a lifetime experience.my motto of life will always pull me back up.but now i question the clarity of it.

am i being toooooo optimistic.

kinda.

/[%_%]\

how do you sleep.

although i still sleep dead.

but screw that.

i have to find something stronger than caffeine!

gracias!

"i salute!"

getting out of the hole.

it had an escape way.

and it wasn't that deep like i imagined.

thank you God.

this time i'm not on my own.

=)

just do it!

another time.

here we go AGAIN.

and again and again.

why does my brain only functions like that!!

*breathes and wishes*

bastards.

freaking 80bucks.

a flat tire and a few retards.

go rot on the toilet bowl.

argh.